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My
soul, my soul, please remember the God that created you and
formed you and put you in the world. Remember the awesomeness
of everything He did for you, from the moment you were conceived
until you were formed. While you were still incomplete He
took care of your sustenance, and the instant you were born
everything was ready for you. Remember
how much glory, how much holy charm God gave you so your parents
would love you. Basically you were an ugly little baby. When
you came out you weren't so beautiful, but because of the
glory God gave you, your parents thought you were the cutest
thing in the whole world and the most perfect being there
ever was. How can you forget all this?
Remember
all the things He did for you personally, how He took care
of you. Remember also what He did for all of Israel. Remember
all the unbelievable miracles. How can you forget how much
God is taking care of us? Why are you so lazy when it comes
to doing good things? Why don't you accept the yoke of Heaven
to learn and to serve Him with strength? How long will you
live in the world of fantasy? Of lies? How long will you despise
your own holy soul? How long will you live asleep? How long
will you not have mercy , have pity on your own self?
The
world we know of is unbelievably big, Then there is the spiritual
world which we don't even know of, There are thousands of worlds,
and millions of angels, and trillions of beings, and they are
all completely annihilated before God's greatness, yet God forgets
everything in the world and just takes care of you. Please remember
how holy it is to be a Yiddeleh, a simple Jew. Don't you know
God created you to learn Torah and to fix the world? Do you
know that every holy thought you have makes a crown for God?
if you really make yourself strong, then a flow of sweetness
and purity and holiness flows right into you, and all the gates
of light and joy are open for you. Just keep away from sadness,
from all evil sadness. I know it takes a lot of strength, but
realize what you are doing! Utilize the strength of the whole
world; the whole great, awesome and holy world is waiting for
you! Even the angels in Heaven can't do anything without you.
How can you leave that which is so sweet and so beautiful, and
exchange it for something which is meaningless? How can you
spend one hour with nothing, when you could spend it in great
Heavenly bliss? How can you be so cruel to yourself?
It is very hard in the beginning. It is true that at the beginning
you don't feel anything, but you have already felt the other
side. Doing nothing, you felt the joy of doing nothing. Why
don't you give yourself a chance once to try how it feels when
you do something? It's hard, but keep it up. Give yourself a
try. Maybe you'll get there.
Please remember who you are. Don't you know you come from the
most hidden, most awesome, most beautiful, most blissful world?
Don't you know that your soul comes from such a place that it
cannot live without having bliss? How can you suddenly become
an ugly pauper, digging in the garbage pail while all the gates
of Heaven are open for you? Instead of serving God, why do you
serve a slave? Do you know how many lights you could draw upon
yourself with every holy word, with every holy thought?
My child, my child, put everything you have into being happy.
Rejoice every second in God and His learning. All the evil in
the world is focused on dragging the joy out of your heart.
As long as you stay completely filled with joy, evil cannot
touch you, but the moment you are not happy anymore, you are
capable of doing evil, God forbid. I know you have a heavy burden
on your shoulders Can you please let it go for one minute? Put
it on God's shoulders for one minute and you will see how suddenly
the world will be light!
Have you ever gained anything by being sad? Nothing. You yourself
know how much you gain by being happy. You can go through all
the trials and tests of life when you are happy, when you are
joyous, but even if you are the holiest greatest Lire in the
world, the moment you are sad you don't have strength for the
slightest test in life. Oy!
The evil voice that comes to you and says, "You're so low,
you're nothing, you're not worthy to serve God," is the
same little evil voice which tells you to be sad all your life.
Don't listen to it! Even if you only did one good thing in your
life, that's enough to dance about! Isn't it enough just to
know that you are a Yiddeleh a simple Jew.? Isn't it enough
to think that God, Creator of Heaven and Earth, is listening
to every word you utter? How can you think you are nothing when
God is listening to you? If you stand before God and tell Him,
"Please God, tell me how to serve You," don't you
know He is ready to answer you instantly?
Every falling down is because you didn't trust God enough, you
didn't believe enough, and because you didn't trust and didn't
believe, you were so sad that you didn't have strength to do
anything. I am pleading and crying and rolling in ashes before
you, and begging you, please, for five minutes when you pray,
open the gates of your soul, let the gates of Heaven open, and
let the great light and purity flow into you. Open your eyes
so the light of Heaven can touch them and you will be able to
see. When you are sad your eyes are closed, and when you are
happy your eyes are open.
Believe me, God knows all your worries, and He is taking care
of them. In the meantime just do your share. It is not enough
to just be happy; you have to tie yourself to happiness, like
tying yourself to a pillar with a rope. If you tie yourself
to joy it supports you and suddenly you have all the energy
you need to do what you have to do. The energy comes from the
pillar of joy, and you are tied to it!
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